New beginnings

"It has been a year and five months. I missed you. It was hard staying away all this while, but how could I possibly write to you when I felt unworthy? I hope that you have been faring well all this while." I had written that in my Google keep in April, preparing to return to writing to you consistently again. But life had other plans for me, or maybe I was lazy and unmotivated. I cannot tell. But writing and returning has been a major challenge, one I am glad to have finally faced. A lot has happened during my time away. I wonder if I can get it all out in a few posts. 

Remember how I talked about how I burnt my fingers the last time I wrote to you in December of 2021? Well, just as I was healing, I burnt it again at the beginning of 2022. I would say these burns were a little worse off. I had a hard time healing but the process happened gradually, I did not even realize it until much later. 2023 has been a bliss. I had found God again. Or rather He found me. His voice got louder than my distractions. I had gotten miserable, it was only left that I turned to one source that could truly heal my broken parts. A lot happened really. Like colours, there were the days of the bright and the days of the dark. Through it all, I came to learn about forgiveness, mercy, love and healing. God can truly turn chaos into calm if we let him. I went from my lowest to a journey to the peak. I met a new community of believers that helped fast track my growth. I saw myself change so much. At first, it was hard to believe I could be back to being okay. Now I don't even remember what it was like when I felt broken. 

In all, my experiences through the year 2021, 2022 and now the quarter of 2023 all put me in a place where I understand what it means to be saved by God's love, to be redeemed, to truly feel free, to be at peace with myself. Remember how I was doing badly with food? Yeah, I got better. I got more comfortable in my skin because of the knowledge of who Christ has made me. Amazing, right? There is so much we can become when we are at peace with God. Life is a lot better. In my last post, I talked about finding peace. I have found this and more even in the face of life challenges. I am learning to stay secure and assured in God's love for me. There are still days I wonder what the future holds for me and I get anxious but I am learning to trust the process. And I know for one, I ought to be writing again. While I was away, I had stories I wanted to write to you. In the days to come, I will be sending them to you. Do enjoy them and let me know your thoughts in the comment section. 

There is so much that I get to tell you later. New people. New experiences. Some gist for another day. Visited some really nice places too. Don't worry, I'll get to tell you all about it. I will be writing you soon. Till then, stay secure in God's love. I love you loads.

Come back every Wednesday for a new entry. Xoxo. 🖤🖤

With love,

Chesed.