Deroda's Diary

The void was back. I had felt light for a while. The gloom had given me a period of rest or maybe it was Tolu’s steady check up messages. Or did I feel disappointed at his last message? He was right yet I felt upset. “I should not replace God in your life. Like a high that keeps you going and feeling better at the moment. The day I change towards you, then you will be back to being melancholic all the time. Let God be that high.” Not long we were back to the discussion. “Tolu, I feel empty again. I don’t feel like getting up. It feels like a there is a weight I can’t shake off my chest. I have tried watching funny skits but nothing has helped so far.” He sighed on the other end of the phone. “We should see. Tomorrow, recreational ground, 3pm. Don’t keep me waiting.”                          ************ Tolu walked in a gingerly manner, each step never fully touching the ground. It was almost as if he could hear the groun...

          Rhoda knocked on the door twice before putting her head through the entrance. I looked up from my phone. "Ready," she said with a wide smile on her face. Rhoda always seemed excited for reasons best known to her. Her chubby cheeks gave her the appearance of a blushing teenager smitten with love. I took a small jump off my bed, grabbed my bag and went with her. We walked quietly for a while. It was not until we got closer to our faculty that I noticed she was whispering. I was lost in a world of my own. I looked at her and away a number of times. "What are you doing?" I asked finally. "You know, reminding myself of who I am when it looks like the opposite. Got to fake it till you make it,” She chuckled. “Though it is not exactly faking, that is what you are and you are just letting yourself know it till it sticks." She said, gesticulating with her hands. I looked from her hands to her face as she spoke. “Makes sense." I said sim...